Well today was interesting... I wore a skort and for those of you that truley know me you must think the apocolypis is upon us. No I just felt like looking cute. Unfortuanatley looking cute does have a price. I was met from everything from sexual advances, critisims, harsh words, sarcastic comments, and God Bless these people compliments. I've decided to disregard the bad even if the comments where from people I'm close to, and throw the good in my pouch for a sad day. Tomorrow I'll just act like nothing happened and leave it be no use getting worked up. Also due to the unbelieveably cute name of Angel Wing Love I have begun a wanna be manga(artist of the world spare my sad ass attepmt) All my artwork is traced then altered to suit my needs, you know like I want that stance but I want a different face or that's a cute outfit, but the girl's face is ugly. So the basic story line is really a reflection of reality. Like my first character which at the moment has no name but visually is Largo from MegaTokyo (episodes 153 I think--the one where he's a teacher) Is thinking about a girl that has left him 9 months earlier. The next character who I gave the hard thoughtout and planned name of Kimiko is said girl that did the leaving.(Basically Seraphim) Next is a Nerd but good friend of Kimiko nameless as well(Piro from Mega Tokyo) Each character represents a person in my life Kimiko being me, Largo lookin boy being Angel and Nerd child being Peter ( no offense to either of you) Later Val (as probably Erika or Ping from MegaTokyo) will pop up having problems with her male counter part (who resembels.) Working in the other players in my waltz known as life will be difficult. Such as Quita, Liz, Josh, and who knows who else. As the Manga Wannabe progresses I'll figure that out. Oh well of to trace and ponder. Bye

So The Language fair was today. That was interesting. First of all I got there first and had to kill like 10 minutes trying to find the Japanese section which they put as far from the enterance as humanly possible I might add. Then Sensei dressed me in the Kimono!! I've wanted to do that since I was 7!! Dream's Come True!!(Quote SES!) Carrying on Alan had to put on the bushido outfit which he had the hardest time adapting to at first. Then Peter arrived with his briefcase( I thought it was going to turn into a car!! It was so Mission Kimpossilbe looking) Then we found out that if we spoke in Japanese we got Yen (Play money form of the real straight from Japan stuff) I wanted this one bag so badly but I needed 13 Yen papers but Jake got it first(my vengence will be swift and unexpected,but satisfying) Then the gang and I did some Origami which could have gone worse but also could have gone better. After that Alan and I were guests of honor (since we just happened to be wearing the appropriate attire) in the tea ceromony. The people of Japan are hard core people to sit through tea ceromony and still have use of their legs. I mean Alan and Keith and various others could not sit still but I sat unmoving and showed my endurance abilities by siting still and sippling the tea(which tasted like Seaweed) with only slight grimaces. Sadly when the time came to actually get up I couldn't. The crowd laughted as the honored guest struggled to their feet and whinced in pain. After that I found out about Jake purchasing MY bag So then I had 2 Yen, Peter had 3 Yen and Alan had 1 Yen and they gave me their Yens. Sadly I didn't have enough for anything worth the trouble. So Alan being the Rich boy from Suburbia brided Keith out of most of his Yen so I could get this cute red purse. So as calling it even I walked with him to the Spanish section and had like a 5 minute conversation with Mr. McDaniels so Alan could have anything he wanted. Sadly there were a few rude middle school children making fun of us due to our attire. So by some random act of God Alan and I did not go off on them (Peter and the others knowing how Alan and me are know that this is a miracle) After that Alan changed and left. Peter drew but since his art(not drawing because that's what everything else was) was not Anime to the extreme it was more Realistic it only got Honorable mention. Well soon after I changed and met Peter where they were announcing winners. As I did I saw this really cute guy. So Peter is extremly tense looking well not really just more focused on Mrs. Shuzts than anyone should ever be. So I get next to him and put my head on his shoulder. I decided not to ask what was up he'd tell me in his own good time (Plus I nag him too much as it is now) So I find out the cute boy is one of Peter's ex's. I proceed to Growl and swear and Peter laughs. Mental thought was 'Of course the cute boy is gay and I bet he's a jerk too.' I was right. So I gave Peter credit for having good visual taste in men and put my head back on his shoulder being bitter. The Peter starts trying to curse the boy and I wanted to tell him the proper way to do that but I don't use that form of my power unless in danger because well I don't always have 100% control over it maybe 50% on a great day.So I kissed my fingers and then put my hand on Peter's face. (Angel Wing Love Guard! TM----very similar to Nori's Pixie Magic) Hopefully that brought him some calm that's what it was suppose to do but my body temperature wasn't right to releave anger only a mild headache. After that went shopping bought some skirts (no way wearable at school) and a blouse. So that's been the day. Highlights of the week. Josh (Liz's b/f) and Geimer tryed to throw me into a trash can(which was fun). The Angel wrote me that takes many forms the first letter melted my heart but as the passages continued I found myself analyzing a little too much(the curse of the Virgo) Then I lost the braclet he gave me 4 years ago(I'm going to replace that soon I hope) The ring is in 3 pieces and I have 2 and the necklace with a heart and key is a tangled mess...signs from God? (On a spiritual note someone had the strange idea to call me a Prophet. I told this chick I'm not religious enough and those guys always end up dead so no I'm just different that's all) Well anyway I think I've ranted enough for one day Later people!

Okay so I've been on the verge of going skitzo(I know it's spelled wrong now ask me if I care) I don't know what the hell is going on with me. I mean like at school I'm mostly geniunely happy, but on the bus or at home I'm mostly ignored or on my own so I have way too much time to think. I mean thinking is good and so is self reflection and all that other good stuff, but a lot of it will make you crazy. SO to take my mind of various confusing subjects I turned to the Zodiac(don't ask me why it seemed like a good Idea at the time) So I read about my sign Virgo, the Virgin(no jokes please I get enough of that from day to day) So then I go 'hmm love calculator let's go here for some laughs." What follow is a verbation copy/paste job of what the bloody thing said. Then the bold is my side notes.



When Virgo and Libra unite, it can be like the coming together of two puzzle pieces. Each interlocks into the other and comfortably rests in place. Both Signs are looking for security in partnership, and they share a love of beauty and culture. They can work together efficiently and smoothly because they desire similar end rewards. The Virgo-Libra relationship may start slowly,(Boy did it ever!) but it will blossom once both partners grow to understand and respect each other.
Virgo and Libra both appreciate material pleasures, and they often enjoy collecting bone china, art or photographs. They also enjoy patronizing the theater. Practicality and pleasure are important to both Signs, and they compliment each other in many ways. Virgo appreciates Libra's charm and diplomacy,(the jerk is charming) and Libra can even things out if Virgo doesn't get their way. Libra appreciates the Virgo love of order and the tangible rewards that come with it.(tangible rewards...interpret that as you will) Additionally, Libra and Virgo see the different sides of a situation, and together they make decisions after weighing all the facts.
Virgo is ruled by the Planet Mercury and Libra is ruled by the Planet Venus.() Virgo is an excellent communicator, analyst and thinker.( ^-^ Hehe I think that's true)These partners share a love of conversation and fine taste. Libra, especially, is about balance, and both partners share pleasing personalities and a desire for harmony. Together they are able to bring culture and beauty into the world around them. Also due to Venus' influence, Libra can be lazy, and both partners may be seen as snobbish: Virgo with their high expectations (ouch yeah I do have high standards)and Libra guilty of an intellectual snub.
Virgo is an Earth Sign and Libra is an Air Sign. Libra moves through life theorizing and cogitating on many varied subjects, while Virgo is more pragmatic. Virgo asks, "how will this help me achieve my goals in life?" ( TRUE)while Libra simply focus on whatever provokes thought, regardless of whether it will produce anything. At times these partners may find it difficult to understand where the other is coming from. Conflicts can arise in this relationship if Virgo seems too picky or Libra seems manipulative. ( Yeah I'm mega picky and I know he's manipulative)Both partners need to learn that they view the world through different filters.
Virgo is a Mutable Sign and Libra is a Cardinal Sign. In this relationship, Libra will steer their direction. Virgo is complacent and easy-going, and Libra can be a gentle, guiding force without crossing the line toward dominance . Libra's indecision may irritate Virgo(For God sake's make up your mind!!), but Libra is skilled at seeing all sides of a problem, and is often able to accept Virgo's decision. If Libra can be the initiator in the relationship,(hmm...kind of I guess I'd almost given up on him when he started showing interest in me) Virgo is adaptable enough to keep their projects going.
The best aspect of the Virgo-Libra relationship is their mutual appreciation of organization and culture. Aesthetics are important to both partners, and they share a love of the finer things in life. Their similar tastes and loves makes theirs a relationship of great harmony. stolen from www.iwon.com.




Well wasn't that special? I also read the Virgo in general thing...we're picky and perfectionists(or laid back), we're jealous, we're analysts and health nuts, and we are modest and humane. Now as lovers (this tripped me out) Virgo's are shy lovers meaning that we would rather watch over people than let them know how we feel. We are open once we get past being protective(if a Virgo likes you they will be sure to let you know) They are loyal and faithful to a fault and well they are wild and experimental love makers. So yeah there's an afternoon well spent...Blah

Warning this is a reflective piece:
What to do? When there's only one person thacan inspire you, but this muse is hardly there. What to do when only one person can make your heart race with the mere mention of his name or hint of his prescence. What to do when you would do anything for said person, but this person only seems to hurt you. My Angel...My Demon....My Love...My Life...My Insanity...My Lust...My Passion...My World...My Michael wrote me today. The letters neither made me happy or sad. No guidance as to how he felt nothing. Mostly just self centered. The only hint of his feelings was the beginning or a story, but the thing is it is only a reflection of his feelings if he clams them as such because if not then they are just words on paper. He needs to sit and find himself and learn that perhaps being open and vulnerable to someone isn't such a bad thing. What do you tell someone that never listens or never understands?

Well this weekend was very dull. I spent most of it doing manual labor and fixing the computer for my mother. I have this intense earge to put a sign on the computer that says no one over the age of 30 and under the age of 14 can touch the computer. When I wasn't working I was watching movies or reading. Blast you Peter you gave me that book and you've made my life difficult. I'm suppose to have the Gettysbugh address memorized by Tuesday and Ordinary People read by Thursday and I spent until 2 in the morning reading Pastoral. Now if you want a book that is written realisticly and with a dash of humor and self righteousness this is a book you can enjoy. Now if you're and anti-gay bigot that is extremely closed minded, probably has no indoor plumming in their house thus meaning thou has an out house instead of a bathroom, and is married to their first cousin Get the Hell out of the Holy Sanctuary! This is a place of acceptance and peace not to be poluted by stupidity!
In anycase moving on I saw 13 Ghosts that was gorey geeze. Not what I expected. I also saw Session 9. OMG that is the freakiest movie I have ever seen!!! I like you know whose the killer movies but like the Scream movies proved to be no challenge for me and neither did Urban Legends or the Summer movies I figured out the killer in the first 1/2 hour in all of them. This one totally twisted story line! I knew who the killer was the entire movie and then they throw in all these BS clues as to who the killer is and I get thrown off and then there's this one line one line that made it go click and OMG it was an emotional rollar coster. Okay let me give you BG info. It's about these guys who have to either rebuild or renovate this abandoned insane asilum. There's Gordon, the boss, Hank, the jerk, Jeff, Gordon's nephew. Michael, lawyer burn out of sorts, and this one other guy with red hair I can't remember his name so we'll call him Red. Well I can't really say it's scary until this one point when Michael finds these tapes about a patient called Mary Higgins. Mary has this split personality thing going on and it's Mary as herself, the Princess, which is Mary as an innocent child, Billy, Mary's protector, and Simon. Simon is revealed in the last like 20 minutes of the movie and it will blow you away. There are 9 tapes each one a session that Mary(which turns into Billy and Princess and Simon) and her Doctor have. The Doctor keeps asking what happened in Lowell 20 years ago at Christmas. Mary never answers, Princess doesn't know, Billy says that he know's but can't tell, and Simon does know and does tell. This movie isn't good unless you like a challenge. Now if you thought Scream was good this isn't the movie for you. Now if you like say the Negotiator and other movies that provoke intense thought as to who's your friend and who's your enemy then this will work. Anyway I'm going to watch Shrek with my brother for the millionth time (I love that movie) Later

Tired but I have time for one quick entry I took all of Lauren's cute little test things and here they are

You're Lulu. You seem a little insensitive to those who don't know you very well, due to your cynical nature. Your mind is always thinking of things, big and small. You have a tough time of letting go of the past. You also like to bash people with plushies for fun and then fry them up with some tasty magic~! XD

Which Final Fantasy X Character would YOU be? Take the test.

You are Edward Wong Hau Pepelu Tivrusky the Fourth
A strange and fun loving kid. You are an expert computer hacker and have all the really important, meaningful dialog in the series :).
Which Cowboy Bebop Character Are You?


Which female character from Final Fantasy 7,8,9 are you??
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What Crimson Blade Commander are You?

All very interesting...Ed? well #2 was Spike (He's sooo cool)Oh well. Lulu I was happy about that(Peter's fav character so Peter tell me about her since I'm still in the stone age with the original grey PS) Garnett is...cute in the game just useless for most of the game. #2 was Aeris. #3 was Beatrix heck yeah! Oh well my mom is nagging to get off line. So Later people.

Aww it looks nicer here than in the Testing Ground!! But still give me opinions!!

Okay I did a new layout in like two maybe three days...It doesn't seem to come together quite right on my Testing Ground...So Um if anyone likes it, hates it, wants to know what in God's name I was thinking e-mail me okay because right now I have to work on a term paper. Later

Hey ppl sorry I've been slacking off on the entries I've had to work tech on the house. Let the complaining begin...Well first there was indoor matinance on the Nagasaki shrine (cleaming...by myself...while everyone else was out...grrrr) Then there was outdoor matinance of the shrine (I had to cut the grass, sweep the walk, and I got lucky and my mother actually tended to her own flowers) Then my Dad nearly blew up the computer and I had to fix it WITH NO MOUSE!!! That's right people just keyboard comands...do you know how long it's been since I've had to use keyboard commands!?! Then of course I've had to tend to my brother (with God bless him has stuck it out through three disks of FFIX and the final half of Metal Gear Solid with me...the boy is 6 and he's pulling all night game runs *tear* I'm proud to call that my brother) I've also baked a pie, made pizza from scratch and have been trying to keep up with a hand written journal. Yes I think I've done quite a bit in the last 3 days. So remind me why I have parents they don't do anything...oh that's right financial aid gott'cha. Man I'm exhausted...BUT HEY Peter has his RPG thing goin' on I'm SOO PROUD OF HIM. But sadly the Twin's grandmother fainted yesterday...I hope she's all right...my grandpa died of cancer. I remember it well...it was a defining moment for me...that and another day made me harsh on the outside but kind once past the exterior. Dan and Peter can probably vouch for that one--good friend-when sh'e not angry. LOL Oh well geeze one more day people then it's back to CHS...it won't be that bad at least there I don' have to run tech 24/7. Hey friends have a good day okay I plan to give everyone killer hugs come Monday. Love ya! Lauren & Catherine come home safe okay! Later

4-7-02 743 PM
ASK AND YOU SHALL RECIEVE!!
Hello World the happy thing stays for now!! Kawaii Prayed for the end of her relationship with my Angel(or so she told me when se called and said that she and the Angel had parted--the Angel's doing no less) and I prayed for his presence. Him being single doesn't make him appear I know but it helps calm my turmoil between my jealousy and my wanting him to be happy. Yes I'm so happy! Kawaii doesn't understand him like I do. I'd have to explain some of his simplest actions to her. I mean I'm not saying I know everything about him but I know enough. The happy stays for now.
4-8-02-9:03 PM
Yupe father's sleeping...again..I'm going to say it's jet-lagg instead of claming neglect. He pulled me out of bed at 7 am to help with yardwork. WHAT IN GOD'S NAME WAS SO IMPORTANT THAT IT COULDN'T WAIT UNTIL SAY 9-ISH? I started FFIX last week. Now I'm on the part were Eiko decideds to leave her village with the moggle's. Man I tried to explain the conscept of the game to my dad...I wasted a lot of time to say the least. Well anyway...I saw Ice Age today. Funny stuff ! but I don't recammend going with a large group of teens...it's more a family movie. Hey I just remembered something I NEED to do so I'll write more later so bye. Later

Friday 10 am:

Hello world I took the day off from school today to help prepare things for the coming of my father. Plus his plane arrives around mid-day and I want to go see him. Well Peter is a Beta I’m so proud of him!! They called him Ritz though instead of Reitz (since when is Peter a Nabisco circular cracker?) Well I hope all goes well. I mean there are certain factors that I have to be weary about. Such as the hour and 45 minute drive to Atlanta and then the probably 2 hour plus waiting for the plane to arrive now these incidents on there own are perfectly safe but throw in my brother and it’s a street fight waiting to happen. I meditated this morning before getting out of bed sending my mind out trying to see if there is anything to be careful of. I had no visions nothing just stillness and then I had no dreams last night But the whether is terrible outside I mean it’s been warm all week and then these last few days have gone frigid…cold and flood are bad omens for me while wind and storms are good signs. Oh well we’ll see my self predictions are so hard to achieve. LOL I just remembered Seer from Musashi (my brother is playing that now), she couldn’t tell her future either. Man I’m tellin’ you. I come from a line of female seers that can only predict disaster…well I guess it’s better than being able to see good things because that would take all the surprise out of life and knowing the bad things can help you stop them. Well I’m gonna save and post this later.


Sunday 2:30 pm
Well Disaster is right. My father’s little flaws are still there. You’d think with the absence of your family for 8 months you’d freakin learn to appreciate them. I mean right now he’s asleep on the couch. God Damn I haven’t slept in two days so I could get a minute with him but so far all he’s done is sleep, eat, play with my brother, and talk with my mom. I obviously mean nothing. So I’ve kept to myself now after being told 3 times maybe later, 4 not right nows, and 1 I’m tired. So that totals 8 rejections in the 48 hours of him being home. Yupe defiantly just like he was when he left. I want my Angel I want him here to pay me attention and talk with me. I hate being ignored! Oh well Everyone I finally got my lazy act together and linked Lauren’s place(sorry it took so long messin’ with the HTMLs are not one of my fav things to do.I know it only takes 2 second but like I said lazy) Nori I’ll get yours soon I promise. I think I’m gonna mess with the lay of the site soon go back to melancholy and tortured because this happy BS is not cuttin it.Oh well not anytime soon you know cause the family probably on the Sunday before we go back to school. Well later

Well today has sucked for everyone hasn't it?
Sadly Peter didn't get his GHP thing which I tried to comfort him but was met with hostility and I can't blame so I decided to back off.
Then Poor Kitsune. She asked her boyfriend if he cared about her and his answer was, "I guess." You know a person 12 years out of 16 and I think you deserve something more than "I guess".
Carrying over Kawaii and my Angel's 1 month anniversary is comming up (no the math doesn't add up but forget it) And when I asked Kawaii whether she was happy or not she said no. I was taken aback and was like "Not even a little?" and she says "No I really don't care." I had to fight the earge to reach out and slap her. I mean the one thing I would kill to have and he means next to nothing to her. I mean Jebus lie to me and say a little. Then I asked her "Well if he doesn't make you happy then why are you going out with him?" and she says "I don't know." I mean Hello is anyone in there!
Oh man Then on the bus ride home Justin makes fun of me because the most explicit thing I had ever seen was my Angel with no shirt on and the most explicit thing I'd ever done was kiss him. Well Excuse me for not being a whore. I mean geeze I happen to like who I am. I mean if other people want to do things who am I to tell them not to and to judge them, no one that's who. But for the love of God don't come over here and belittle my experiences and mock me for having a concience. I mean if you ask me I'm not going to lie and say "yeah I think sneaking into your girlfriend's house at night doing God only knows what is fine" HECK NO! I'm going to tell you "I think it's wrong and it's not something I would do but that's you so do whatever." I mean live and let live. Then he goes and knocks my whole staying a virgin thing calling it no more than fear. Then I kinda went off on him and said "Look if I wanted a man I could have one! I don't lack looks, charm, or intellegence. But I refuse to become a whore just to have your approval because if that's what it takes to get it I don't need it!" With that I got off the bus. I mean geeze me and my innocence are just fine thank you. We'll part ways when the time comes and not before. Some people I mean Lord have mercy. Oh well no use being anymore upset.
Peter Look I love you Silly boy! *GLOMP*Much thanks and love for the Music Videos.
That was my moment of bright shinny happiness in the dark. I'm gonna start calling him Noriko(no seriously what do you think?) Man that would be a really strange inside joke. In my head I had him as Noriko anyway. My Angel is Tamahome, Justin is the Bandit, Dan is Hotori, Josh is the doctor, and I have no ChiChiri or the little one. Yeah I have 5 star honored warriors. I think Alan can be ChiChiri...yeah I can see him bustin out the NO DA (TradeMark of CHiCHiRi!!) Ha I only need one more. In the last few weeks Kawaii's been my Yui. She can find her own warriors these are mine!! I may be the priestess but I'll guard my boys too. Whoa long rambeling Nori moment never mind me I'll just go now Later.

Another day another want of 15 Dollars. So Now that that the count down on Peter's site for his letter is over I can actually light a small candel of support here and say hopefully it arrives soon so we can shower our fav boy with gifts. See Peter if the world was Perfect we'd render your love interest unconsious and let you nurse him back to health making him fall madly in love with you in the process. That's the game plan unfortunatley due to having no idea as to how to get that to work me and the drawing board are still deep in thought. Today was my Japanese Presentation. It went okay I guess I had it planned a little better in my head but since Sensei had us in the lab there was no time for tournament style gaming in the classroom. Peter's love interest keeps putting me on the spot and it's making me feel very stupid. Like random comments about my eyes, smile, and appeareance right there in Peter's presence. The thought going through my head is 'CRAP quit talking about me and talk about Peter he's the one that wants you! Talk about his eyes, his hair, his fashion sense, anything just not me!' And it's not just cause it's Peter's love interest I just don't know how to handle male attention. I don't consider myself pretty and to have such a coment thrown my way is like throwing a monkey wrench in the works. Plus I think it bothers Peter because well he has feelings for this person and well for them to be speaking of some one else must bother him. Or maybe that's just my jealous way of thinking (Peter knows how jealous I am when it comes to my Angel. I hate sharing him with anyone. Which reminds me I still haven't written him *Guilt*) Well my health is returning Liz helped me interpret my dreams in a way that they all came together just as I thought they should. Hopefully they have been analyzed correctly. Oh special shout out to Lauren to get healthy. Morning Anime discussion is a little dry when she isn't there to smile every so often as I rambel hyperly and Peter nodds and Catherine (that's you'r sisters name right *guilt*) smiles too. (2 smiles are better than 1) Well let me figure out what to write about to my Angel now. Hey Nori U crazy Harry Potter lovin person your e-mails are the best they're like most of mine speratic and a little unconnected. I Luv ya! Night guys.